Desire to Leave My Body by Bodhi Shaman on July 3, 2001 As I’ve been intensely experimenting with this desire to leave my body, I am automatically gaining more experience of what this state feels like. For no other reason than it’s because I am looking so closely at it, analyzing it, feeling the different sensations that come with it, I can feel my perception changing in relation to it. I feel that’s no different than any other human experience, and offer this analogy to explain more clearly: Music production changed my life forever when a guru and college professor of mine; David Moulton, instructed me to “listen to the spaces between the sounds” when listening to music to to write about what I heard.
I started to listen to music in a whole new way. I started to notice echoes and spaces and trails of reverb that I had never thought to listen to before. I started to notice if a voice was doubled, if there were subtle harmonies in the background, if there were multiple layers of instruments playing the same melody, and countless other nuances that had never occurred to me to listen before. I was in awe of how much was right under my ears that I had never heard before!
Once I heard those details, there was also no turning back. Experiencing music for me would never be the same, but in exchange for the blissful experience of simply “rocking out” or “chilling out” to music I loved, I felt I got to step inside the music in a way I never was able to do before. This experience is something I wouldn’t trade for the world, and something I’ve tried to integrate into all the music I’ve produced, from Spiritualized, Mercury Rev, and the Flaming Lips, to commercials and bumpers I’ve produced during some of the “leaner” times in the music business.
Anyway, I don’t know if this heightened awareness of differing nuances and states of consciousness will ever lead me to leaving my body, but I can’t help feeling that I’m heading in the right direction. I also feel that other people truly have and do leave their bodies, and that it is because of their state of mind to enables it to happen. I’m convinced that we all have the same innate “spiritual” abilities buried deep inside of us, and that it’s just a matter of discovering the places in which they are hidden or wiring our mechanisms and filters to recognize and embrace these places.
Lucid dreaming, out-of-body experiences, near-death experiences, reaching altered states of consciousness, meditation…these all have one thing in common: They are simply different states of mind. Each of these experiences is as tangible as the next, and maybe they touch the same place, each providing different gateways to the same experience, but the bottom line is that these places can feel even more real than me writing this, partly because in those experiences, we sometimes have more control over our perceived reality than we do in our usual waking one.
Either way, I am too weary from my efforts to experiment anymore this evening. But, I’m not losing faith in the least; this ongoing experiment has brought me joy simply from the journey itself.